Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Kata Cinta

Lahir dengan zaman yang berbeda membuat orang tua dan anak memiliki cara pandangan hidup yang berbeda. Pemahaman terhadap sesuatu hal menjadi berbeda. Suatu hari aku mendengar keluhan temanku tentang orang tuanya yang begitu mencemaskan, mencemaskan keberadaannya, selalu menahannya pergi jauh, dan lain-lain.

Karena kata cinta antara orang tua dan anak memiliki makna yang berbeda sehingga menjadikan wujud cinta pun menjadi berbeda. Mungkin hanya sedikit bentuk cinta yang orang tua tahu. Mungkin, hanya itu cara yang mereka tahu untuk menunjukkan cintanya. Atau mungkin, menurut mereka itulah bentuk cinta terbaik dari segala bentuk cinta yang ada.

Orang tua yang selalu menyuruhmu sudah di rumah sebelum jam 9 malam. Mereka yang selalu menanyakan kemana kamu pergi, dengan siapa, pulang jam berapa. Orang tua yang tidak mengijinkanmu mendaki gunung yang tinggi. Tidak mengijinkanmu pergi dengan laki-laki berdua. Orang tua yang tidak memberikanmu HP tercanggih saat ini. Orang tua yang selalu menyuruhmu begini dan begitu. Orang tua yang selalu marah-marah melihatmu bangun siang.



Cinta tidak selalu bermakna menjadi tindakan yang menyenangkan, tidak pernah selalu menjelma menjadi hal-hal yang membahagiakan. Justru cinta hadir dalam bentuk kepedulian dan kekhawatiran yang sering kita keluhkan.
Setelah itu cinta akan menjadi wujud keikhlasan. Membiarkanmu pergi dengan hidup barumu dengan seseorang. Membiarkanmu pergi tanpa sedikitpun mereka menahanmu untuk tetap bersama mereka.

Setelah itu cinta akan menjadi wujud-wujud yang berulang saat kita menjadi orang tua. Karena kita telah belajar bentuk cinta yang mungkin dulu kita benci. Hari itu, ketika kita menjadi orang tua. Kita akan tahu bahwa cinta benar-benar tidak sempat menjadi kata-kata karena semua telah menjadi tindakan.

-Kurniawan Gunadi

Friday, August 12, 2016

Retreat



وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ عَنِ اللَّغْوِ مُعْرِضُونَ

dan orang-orang yang menjauhkan diri dari (perbuatan dan perkataan) yang tiada berguna

وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ عَنِ اللَّغْوِ مُعْرِضُونَ

dan orang-orang yang menjauhkan diri dari (perbuatan dan perkataan) yang tiada berguna

وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ عَنِ اللَّغْوِ مُعْرِضُونَ

dan orang-orang yang menjauhkan diri dari (perbuatan dan perkataan) yang tiada berguna



Life updates and sorts.

Bismillah.

I'm sorry I don't have any post about Ramadhan or Raya or Weddings (not mine obviously). Life has been hectic.

My gratefulness is beyond anything to the facts that I'd already graduated and secured a job. After all the struggles and disappointments - Back then, all I had was a tiny amount of hope on how to restart my new life in Malaysia.

To stand up straight and try gaining back what we had lost was never easy. But when I realize where I'm at, who I'm friends with and how wonderfully life has became now, it was definitely the bitter bits that finally brought me here.



Life has so much yet to experience !

Thank you for all the loves and prayers :)

Saturday, June 25, 2016

To the persons who promised to stay but left.

I used to wonder about people coming back after they’ve decided to leave. I used to wait for the day they come back and realize that they messed up or realize that life is miserable without me. 

But then I realized that better than all this mess is someone who never leaves.

Someone who never leaves when you hit bumps in the road, someone who never leaves when the rain starts falling down on you, someone who never leaves no matter how dark it gets, someone who chooses to stay every single day.

You deserve someone who never leaves when things are not that exciting, when life becomes overwhelming for you to handle, when you are tired all the time, when you’re lost and confused and don’t know what to do next, when you keep doubting yourself and your capabilities. 

You deserve someone who never leaves even if they found a better job or made more money or bought a fancier car. Someone who never leaves when they’re at their best, when they can get anyone they want but still choose you, when they don’t even care about exploring all these other ‘options’ to realize your worth because they know what they have and they know that you are one of a kind.

You deserve someone who makes you believe that some people can stay.

You deserve someone who reminds you of how you survived, someone who reminds you of your strength, someone who reminds you of your greatness and someone who reminds you that even though you can make it on your own, they want to be there, they don’t want you to be alone this time and they want to fight your battles with you. 
Even though we all have that one person we wish could come back, what we really should wish for is someone who never leaves. Someone who left before could leave again but someone who could’ve left but decided to stay is exactly the kind of person you need to be with – is exactly the kind of person you deserve to be with. 

These were lovely written by Rania Naim. 

To dear former friends, to the persons who promised to stay but left, this is me letting go. This is me moving on. This is me, giving myself what I deserve, so much more. 

You deserve someone who doesn’t give you internal conflicts. Someone who never leaves when things get hard, when life becomes complicated, when you’re lost and confused and aren’t sure of what to do next. 

 Cheers to whoever stays.
 
 
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