Friday, September 22, 2017

Dear me, are you proud of how you have become ?

Bismillah ar rahman ar raheem.

It has been a while since I last posted anything here.
Today post will be all about self reminder, from the 24 years old me to probably the 34 years old me in another 10 years.

Understanding Al Qadar

At the age of 24, I am constantly recalculating the route that have been taken, pondering on the decisions that  have been made, somehow regretting on the things that I didn't choose.

As constant as it is to have these thoughts lingering my mind , I need to constantly remind myself that I am doing just well , no regrets, and of course to believe that better things are coming my way. Understanding  al qadar is not only about trusting Allah's plan but the courage to follow the way and take the next steps, letting go all that weighing you down.

Seeking for the Baroqah by letting go !

Few months ago , I asked Allah to show me the way out from the life I lead before. The barokah was just not there - most importantly my iman was descending , badly. 

I was in a kind of denial at first about the fact that I am leaving a big company at such a young age. Sometimes it is hard for us to let things go because we thought it is ours in the first place, yet the real fact my friend, it was never ours. Allah put us in that place as a test. Be it losing your loved ones, losing your job, losing a friend. It is never ours, so why not letting go :)

Letting go is probably the way for us to approach our duas, by having faith that Allah is preparing something better.

 After two timeless months considering to left this job,  I finally took the advice of a very good friend, that I am very young and there's no need to contemplate. I have the choice and so I left , taking the memories and lessons with me, not knowing where to go.

Dua in Raudhah

You see, the power of reciting dua very precise is profoundly amazing. I made dua in Raudhah (garden in Paradise) after I quit and precisely utter that I want to have a career that have these amount of pay, good relationship with boss and colleagues, near to Universiti Malaya, a career that I can use my Japanese skill, and most importantly, barokah !

Little did that I know, I finally made my way to all the duas I have uttered, Alhamdulillah .

When I joined the new company , I like it immediately. The humbleness is everywhere within the people, I can go back sharp at 5.30 pm , Universiti Malaya (the place I held usrah) is just only 6 minutes away from the office and I finally live with my parents - in which I don't need to bother myself to cook healthy food anymore heheh.

My Rizq can't be taken by other , so my heart is contended - Hassan Al Basri

Months later I stumbled upon this talk by Ustaz Hannan that explained the concept of Rizq (sustenance), 

"Rizq is no different like death, written before we were even born. No matter how far you run from it, your Rizq will searches you, no matter how far ! "

From what I could see over the time, all that happened lead me to the Rizq Allah had written, it matures me, grows me, and I finally know how to chill about life, knowing that He will make me suffice in any condition He put me into.

So, dear you....

Even so Allah has a plan for you, the fulfilment of that plan is all up to you, your faith and determination.

Be kind, besarkan jiwa, you are exactly where Allah wants you to be :)

Friday, August 18, 2017

O' Allah...

“(Yang paling berat ujiannya ialah) para nabi, kemudian yang lebih utama dan yang berikutnya. Seseorang akan diuji sesuai dengan agamanya. Apabila agamanya kokoh, semakin beratlah ujiannya, dan jika dalam agamanya ada kelembekan, dia diuji sesuai dengan agamanya. Tiada henti-hentinya ujian itu menimpa seorang hamba sampai melepaskannya berjalan di muka bumi dalam keadaan tidak ada dosa padanya.” 

(HR. at-Tirmidzi)
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